Dreams

Since I was a little girl I've dreamed of being a writer and a teacher. I went to college unsure of what to study, and settled on English, since it was the perfect outlet to explore my love of reading and writing. Grad school followed, where I continued in this vein, with dreams of being a college professor on the horizon. But my first experience at teaching didn't go so well. The kids in the classroom weren't quite as enthused as I thought they would be. Soon, my self-esteem began to sink, and I wondered if being a professor really was my calling. And so I turned to copy-editing, another dream of mine. This, too, ended on a sour note. In desperation I looked around, wondering what God had in store.

But He had a plan in mind. And that plan was to let go. That plan was to become a military wife and mother, and leave the rest of the future up to him. That plan was to place me at home, where I would have time to read my Bible, invest in my family, and learn how to write in new, exciting ways.

And you know what, I'm ok with that. No, I'm not bringing in the big bucks as a college professor or editing up a storm in a news room, but I'm happy. I have time to keep my home clean, spend time with God each day, and prepare for this coming baby. And I feel as if God is slowly opening up a door when it comes to writing. I've found that I love blogging and reading other people's blogs. I've even tried my hand at submitting some work to some Christian publications.

My dreams haven't disappeared, they've just slowly been changing and evolving over time. What I thought I wanted and what God knew I needed were once two very different things. But now, slowly, those dreams are becoming realized.

I'm so blessed, this life I live as a military wife. I wouldn't change it for anything. And so, I'm excited to see how God will use my gifts for His glory in future years. Perhaps I will teach or copy edit again, or perhaps I'll simply be a military wife and mother, which is a pretty good life, if you ask me.

I'm a ready and willing vessel, which is exactly where God wants me.