"We demolish arguments and every high-minded thing that is raised up against the knowledge of God, taking every thought captive to obey Christ" (2 Corinthians 10:4b-5, HCSB).
With The Influence Conference less than a week away, I've been researching other attendees, reading up on some of their blogs, trying to get to know them ahead of time.
It's hard to not start comparing.
To wish I was different.
Or to wonder where my place in all of this is.
I've started to struggle, wondering how real my calling could be. My calling that I've always felt on my heart. My drive to write, to share, to witness, to encourage.
When I read 2 Corinthians 2 this morning, it truly spoke to my heart. It was such a good reminder to take every thought captive. Insecurities, comparisons, disputes, to give all of it to Jesus, and replace it with His knowledge and truth. To replace the lies with His truth.
The truth is that this is my influence, this is my world. God has called me to live it out to the best of my ability. He's called me to do what He wants me to do.
It's beautiful to think that, next week, I'll be around like-minded women. Women who get the blogging thing, the mothering thing, the spouse thing. Women who are struggling along, trying to figure out their own, distinct calling. Women who struggle with seeing their own influence. Who struggle with feeling insignificant, just like me.
We all have beautiful stories to tell.
Mine? It's a story of a military wife and mother. Someone who has been torn from friends and family. Someone who is learning to love, wherever her feet are planted. Someone who is learning how to build a home for her family, who is learning how to share Jesus in her life.
That's influence. My husband, my children, new friends I make a new churches, moms I meet at the park each week. It's amazing how small, but yet how significant our influence reaches. My job? Live what God has called me to do. Share, what He has placed on my life. Know that the people who read my blog are the people that God wanted. If their hearts are being changed by this. Then, that's truly enough. Numbers? They don't really matter. Living out what God has called me to do? That's what's important.
What about you?
What has God called you to do?
What's your influence?