It's been awhile, but my heart is full. This week has been full of warmth and sunshine, which has been so good for my soul. The kiddos and I have been living outside, feeding the ducks at the park, doing devotions on a red blanket with floppy head in place, afternoon bike rides down the streets. I truly love this time of year, even if my head is achy from pollen counts.
This morning brought rain, but even rain has beauty to it. Rain, which brings life, green, spring to this place called Alabama. Rain, which we had so little of during our Colorado years. I know that summer will bring pretty intense humidity to Alabama, so I'm truly enjoy this beautiful Spring, soaking in each sun-filled day. Enjoying the pitter-patter of the rain on the cloudy days. pp
I've been journaling a lot lately, something that's been so refreshing for me.
Journaling through Lent with this lady: Naptime Diaries. It's truly been wonderful. Having a writing prompt every morning has really got some creative juices flowing. I've been a bit discouraged lately, a bit uncertain about where to go with blogging, but having a handwritten journal, again, has reminded me of why I love writing so much. How writing, for me, is a form of worship, a series of written out prayers, a time with Jesus. That was the whole reason I started blogging. To pray, through words, to encourage, to minister to others with the words God has given me. I love this handwritten journal and definitely want to continue after Lent. Suddenly, my lack of blogging has less to do with not having anything to say and everything to do with my heart having to much to say.
But it's time to get organized, write out some lists, and come up with some scheduled blog posts for all of you. God has been teaching me a lot lately. A lot about perfectionism, expectations as a wife and mommy, parenting young ones, prioritizing, friendship, and personal goals.
I'm imperfect, I'm growing, I'm on the mend. I'm a daughter of the King whose constantly learning new things. I'm the wife of a military man who is still learning the ropes. I'm mommy to two little ones that often demand more than I feel I can give.
Would you continue on this journey with me?
Would you pray, right along side me, that God would have something new to teach us this season?
That as Spring slowly, ever so slowly, comes, that our own hearts would be renewed, once again?
Because He brings light and life to each of our lives.
Light, has been the overall theme of my heart this week. Light, as I watched the sunlight gleam on my two little tow heads. Light, as the sun soaked into my white shoulders on our walks and bike rides. Light, as I read about the Israelites, stumbling around in the darkness for 40 years, going in circles instead of entering the promised land. Light verses Darkness. Belief verses unbelief. Trusting God with every part of me, verses holding things tightly and not letting go.
"Unbelief causes many Christians to wander in the wilderness. They continue to struggle with the flesh and they don't go anywhere. They mark time. They don't gain ground. They can't move forward and they don't conquer they flesh and they don't go anywhere. They mark time. They don't gain ground. They can't move forward and they don't conquer the things God wants them to conquer. Instead of living victorious life they feel totally defeated" (Chuck Smith, Faith, 92).
I don't want to live a life in darkness. A life wandering around in circles, even though the truth is right in front of me, bright as day. Instead, I want to live in truth. In the knowledge of everything my Savior has done for me. I want to live in joy and peace, because He's already paid the great cost for your sins and mine. That's the great news of today and everyday. News that even Christians forget at times. We're no longer bound to darkness. We don't have to wander around in circles. All we have to do is open up our hands and let grace enter in. Let light permeate the darkest corners of our hearts. Live each day to the fullest. Move forward in the knowledge that He is in control. The battle has already been won. He has chosen us individually to live with Him, in His marvelous light.
"But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for His possession, so that you may proclaim the praises of the One who called you out of darkness and into His marvelous light, but now you are God's people; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy" (1 Peter 3:10, HCSB).