My tiny child. You may never realize the depth of my love for you. That you won't remember these early days is so odd to me. Me who is just now experiencing some of the hardest moments in my life. Me, who has gone through months of sleep deprivation. Who still vividly remembers birthing you into this world, holding you in my arms, being truly amazed by the miracle of you. Who will always remember that night we brought you home, walked thru the door, read big sister a book, found out she had cried because I wasn't there to paint her toes. Who has fought the fear of balancing two kids, loving them both. The fear for your safety, if you'd grow healthy, if my body would be able to feed you this time. Blue eyed boy, what a gentle heart you already have. May it remain pure. May Jesus speak into your soul at an early age.
God is teaching me such great lessons through mothering. The greatest being love. Loving you and your sister is so different. The moment I found out that you were growing inside of me, love entered in. Love that wouldn't change with the seasons. Love that's there after a sleepless night, a long day of you and your sister screaming. Love the hopes for good things in your life. That prays you'll find your own way in this life.
If I love you, with every part of me, how much more does my Savior love you? God our Creator, who placed you here on this earth. Who created you in His image. His love surpasses all things. Mothering is such a beautiful example of this love. But it's only the smallest glimse into eternity. Because as much as I love you, my child, God loves each of us innumerably more. He chose us, individually, to belong to Him. We are called His children, what an amazing honor.
(1 John 1:3 HCSB) "Look at how great a love the Father has given us that we should be called God’s children. And we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it didn’t know Him.
While I would do anything to protect my babies, my Savior did even more. He sacrificed Himself for all of our sins, so that we could live eternally with Him. What an awe inspiring gift!
"This is how we have come to know love: He laid down His life for us. We should also lay down our lives for our brothers" (1 John 1:16, HCSB).
My prayer for you and your sister is that you will realize this great love God has for all of us. This life has so many choices. I can do my best to teach you about Jesus, but the choice is ultimately up to you. You will have to chose to follow Him. You will have to chose to live your life for Him. He loves you so very much my dear son. This life truly isn't worth living without Him in the center. I prayer you realize this love through the example your family sets. May you realize the beautiful overarching love of our Father.
"I pray that He may grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power in the inner man through His Spirit, and that the Messiah may dwell in your hearts through faith. I pray that you, being rooted and firmly established in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the length and width, height and depth of God’s love, and to know the Messiah’s love that surpasses knowledge, so you may be filled with all the fullness of God" (Ephesians 3:16-19, HCSB).
You are so dearly loved.