"Clearly, God's promise to give the whole earth to Abraham and his decendants was based not on his obedience to God's law, but on a righteous relationship with God that comes by faith" (Romans 4:1, NLT).
"Even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping--believing that he would become the father of many nations. And Abraham's faith did not weaken, even though, at about 100 years of age, he figured his body was as good as dead--and so was Sarah's womb. Abraham never wavered in believing God's promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever he promises" (Romans 4:18-21, NLT).
I cried as I read these verses this morning. They were just the reminder I needed. A reminder of all I believe.
So often I get caught up in expectations. I expect myself to accomplish certain things in a day. I mentally beat myself up when I don't fulfill those goals. I try to do way too much with a two-year-old and 7 week old in tow. I feel bad that I can't do it all. I wonder why I'm the way I am. Why I'm not different. I wonder why my children are the way they are. Why some days are so very difficult. And in doing this, I doubt my Perfect Savoir. I doubt what He created. I spiral down a path that doesn't have a good ending. I keep going down, and my day keeps getting worse, until, I pause and look up.
My soul whispers, "what do you believe Megan, really?"
I look up to His greatness. I look up to His glory. I look up and remember His blessings. I look up and remembe all that is true. I replace that lies with His truth. He has promised good things for those that love Him, who are called to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
Truly, I believe that He created me for good things. That my children are a blessing. That I live each day of this life with a purpose. That He will provide .
These verses are a reminder to stop. To listen. To let our soul catch up with our body. To ask ourselves what we truly believe. Do we really believe that God can provide? Abraham was far from a perfect man. Scriptures detail some of his costly mistakes. It's kind of nice knowing he was human. He wasn't perfect. It's so easy to look at others and see their seemingly perfect lives. But none of us our there. We all have our shortcomings. We all have gaps that need to be filled by a Savior. And so, we pause, and look up.