The weather has been colder lately. I'm loving the change. Scarves, jackets and hats are getting pulled out of closets. Trees are changing colors. Cold days mean we're drawing indoors. We're spending less time outside Still, there are those moments of sunshine. Times when we sneak outdoors to soak it all in. Fall is wonderful like that.
I love cherishing the moments. Moments when my little girl rides her new tricycle up and down the driveway, stopping to pick flowers along the way. Her bike is brand new. She's still learning how to rotate the pedals around as she goes. But she laughs through the process, gabbing about this and that in toddler dialect. I find myself shivering in the cold, but relishing the moments just the same. I don't want it to end. I don't want to go back inside, to dishes, to dirty clothes, to vacuuming. Honestly, at times I don't even want to write. I'd rather be outside with my girl. And there's something right about that. Something that should be.
I know, as much as I dream about careers and aspirations, that being with my girl is right. It's real. I cherish the moments. I look at her and know that one day, very soon, she'll be driving off in a car, busy with school and work and friends. Hopefully, she'll consider me her friend, but the moments on a toddler tricycle will be far behind me. She won't need my help pedaling anymore.
I love the words of Ecclesiastes 3. They speak of the cycle of life, and of there being a perfect time for everything: "a time to give birth and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot" (vs. 2). For my little girl, her life is only beginning. This time spent with her is truly a time of planting. A time of teaching. A time of instilling life values in her little heart. In the grand scheme of things she's still a brand new creation. Still stretching her boundaries each day. Learning what is right. Learning how to live in this world. I hope we're doing right by here. I pray we're teaching her what is right and true. Yes, it's hard being home with her some days. But then, in those moments in the sunshine peak through, I'm reminded of God's graciousness. I know that He has me here, in this season for a reason.
Last year, as we watched the leaves Fall, we said goodbye to our favorite Airman for a season of deployment. It was a rough time, not one I'll easily forget. And I hope I don't. That season taught me so much. So much about depending on God, cherishing my loved ones, and focusing on the things that are truly important in this life. That time was a rough time, but I had to trust that God had a plan through it all. This Fall, I have different feelings on my heart. Different questions about the future, and where it might take us and our family. Once again I have to trust in God for His provision.
I turned to the book of Ecclesiastes to read the first few verses, but I found something marvelous a bit further down: "He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also put eternity in their hearts, but man cannot discover the work God has done from beginning to end." (vs. 11). He has made everything appropriate in its time. Not my time. Not your time. His time.
Eternity is in our hearts, something greater than we can understand. My little girl, attempting to pedal her bike, has beautiful things upon her heart. Passions, goals, dreams that have yet to be achieved. God has placed them there and will reveal them in their own time.
What dreams are on your heart today? What may God be speaking to you this Fall?