Last week was a hard one for me. At times, this deployment seems to have a dark cloud of stress and discouragement hanging over it. It seemed like, the more I tried to give this season of Lent over to God, the more I was attacked and discouraged.
But this weekend, things changed for the better. I did a good bit a praying, spent a good amount of time in scripture, and let go of some worries that were heavy on my heart.
And then, the light began to shine.
As the worry left my heart, peace began to seep in.
It started in the outer corners, and soon invaded even the deepest parts of me. Those deepest corners of my heart are the rockiest. Those crevices are where my deepest worries and hurts are stored.
But God once again took them over.
What a great feeling it is to be set free from those things!
I feel happy. Light. Tranquil.
I feel as if I could dance.
Yes, I still go to my calendar and daily count down the days until my husband comes home. Yes, I still don’t exactly like this current reality.
But I’m starting to find joy in it once again.
I’m starting to see the good, instead of focusing on the bad.
I’m starting to see what a life free of worry could be like.
I’m dancing, just because I can.
Twirling around the room with my little girl, without a care in the world.
Because that’s how my little girl dances.
"You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent. LORD my God, I will praise you forever" (Psalm 30:11-12, NIV)
What do you need to let go of today? What can you fast from, during this season of Lent ?