"I don't know how you do it," people tell me. "I just wouldn't be able to handle my husband being over there."
I've gotten comments like this quite a bit since my husbands been away.
In answer to them, yes, I'm afraid sometimes. Yes, I worry. But most of all, I have to trust.
I have to trust that God holds the keys to life and death in His hands. He, and He alone, knows the number of our days (See Psalm 139).
And so, I give my fears to Him, time and again, and let Him be in control.
Yes, it's hard having my husband gone. Yes, I miss him with every breath. But it's not as bad as you might think. For the most part, little E and I just live our every day lives. We've had playgroups, birthday parties, trips to the park, coffee dates, craft projects, and visits with family over the holidays. I can honestly say that, for the most part, these deployment months have flown by quickly. We stay busy, which helps. But, most of all, we cast all of our cares at the foot of the Cross, day after day. He and He alone gives us joy and peace each day.
Do you have any fears in your life, today? Anything you need prayer for? Leave them at the foot of the Cross, the peace you'll receive is indescribable.
"My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be" (Psalm 139:15-16, NIV).
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand" (Isaiah 41:10, NIV)