" For I do not understand what I am doing, because I do not practice what I want to do, but I do what I hate. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree with the law that it is good. So now I am no longer the one doing it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my flesh. For the desire to do what is good is with me, but there is no ability to do it. For I do not do the good that I want to do, but I practice the evil that I do not want to do" (Romans 7:HCSB).
There are still days that I feel this way. I say things I immediately regret. I get angry with my daughter, when I should have held my temper. I make assumptions about those around me, only to be proven wrong. This world is a broken one, and I often live right in it.
But there's a beautiful thing. A thing I don't deserve. An act that has set me free from the world and its entanglements. Yes, I have bad moments, moments in which I'm not at my best, but it's marvelous to realize that those moments are already covered. Those moments are already forgiven. I can step forward, looking toward a better tomorrow. A day in which I"m more like Christ. Yes, i may still slip on in that day, but I have something to aspire to be. Someone to be like. Someone who died on the cross for my sins. Someone who has set me free.
"Therefore, no condemnation now exists for those in Christ Jesus, because the Spirit’s law of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death" (Romans 8:1-2, HCSB).
I have been set free. What a marvelous thought! Even in my worse moments, sin truly has no hold over me. I can give those low moments over to Christ, and look toward a better tomorrow with a slate that is washed cleaned. Because my sins have already been forgiven, all of them, yesterday, today and tomorrow. As much as I may think so, sin really has no hold over me. Those words I sometime speak, the anger that sparks up, the assumptions I make, really don't have to be so. I can lay them at the foot of the cross, today and everyday.
Isn't that a marvelous thought? To think that sin has no hold over us? But how to do you get past those moments? How do you truly leave those things at the foot of the cross, not to pick them up again? I'd love to hear your thoughts, your suggestions. For me, it's a daily process. I daily desire to become more like Christ. I'm not there yet, but I'm surely trying.