Can I be honest? There are some times that I really wish this deployment had been before my little girl was born.
In my head it would be so much easier. I could sleep through the night. I could spend hours writing at coffee shops. I wouldn’t spend all day picking up cheerios and cleaning up tears.
I would be alone.
But then again…
I wouldn’t have her cuddles.
I would have her giggles.
I wouldn’t have her happy face to wake up to each morning.
And that just wouldn’t do.
That day one September past changed my life forever.
A little girl entered and upset our world entirely.
It wouldn’t make sense if I tried to live my life like she didn’t exist.
It wouldn’t make sense if I tried to live pre-baby.
I love my blogging community. I love the inspiration and challenges that are put in front of me from posts such as this.
It was this post that got me to thinking about life without my little one. It was this post that challenged me to question if I live my life working around my little girl, or if I live my life with my little girl.
Truth be told, there’s nothing wrong if we spend our day in our jammies, playing with toys and giggling over silly music.
These days will pass all too fast.
Already my little girl acts more like a toddler than a baby.
So it’s important that I live in the here and now.
I am a mommy during this deployment. That means that bedtimes fall at 7pm, only with the occasional deviation. Bananas are a main food group. And puzzle pieces will indeed be stepped upon.
But that’s ok.
It’s the life God has chosen to bless me with, so I’m done wishing my life was any different.
He created me to be a mommy as much as He created me to be a writer and a wife. It’s just a part of who I am.
What is your calling? Do you embrace it or avoid it?