And I was excited for him. Excited that he has some things to look forward to. Happy that his job will keep him busy during this deployment. Happy that he now has a clearer picture of where he’ll be and what he’ll be doing.
But at the same time, knowing the details only makes things more real (can you say more real, ah well, I just did!). Knowing the details only solidifies the fact that he will be leaving before too long. Knowing the details forces me to face the future, instead of just ignoring it.
Because I’d love to ignore the future.
I’d love to just live my life without a care in the world.
I’d love to forget about what lies ahead.
But it’s still there, screaming at me, telling me that hard times are ahead.
And that’s painful.
At the same time, there’s something about knowing. Something about facing the facts. Something about placing those fears and frustrations into the arms of Jesus.
With that release of fears comes such peace. Peace that God is in control. Peace that He is big enough to handle this situation. Peace that He will see us through to the other end of this deployment.
There’s nothing better then peace, dear friends. Peace in the midst of turmoil is the only thing that keeps me going some days.
Do you have peace in your life today?
“You will keep in perfect peace the mind [that is] dependent [on You], for it is trusting in You” (Isaiah 26:3, HCSB).